Windows

In my mind, you get a 2-3 month window whenever you move to a new place to go out and meet people. This is the time when you get a free pass to go to bars, events, plays, or whatever the case alone and not be judged. After that window has passed, I feel like a freak going places alone; like a strange person who can't make friends and should get a life. Why, though? Things in life change and friendships can come and go. Shouldn't that window be open anytime a major event happens? Why do I nail it shut and trap myself inside? The city is full of events that are ideal for attending alone and meeting people. It never fails, that if I am brave enough to venture out on my own, I will find someone to talk to and enjoy myself. BUT getting me out of the doors is so hard!

Moving isn't the only time we find ourselves with windows of time. Meeting a new people for instance, you have a few days to make contact after the initial interaction to follow up. If not, then you are out of luck and have missed your window of opportunity to create a relationship. I feel it says to the other person “you weren’t cool enough to contact right away; but now that I have nothing else to do, you are my backup.” I think this is doubly true with dating situations. It definitely feels like the other person is not interested enough to make time. With platonic it is a larger window. But we make time for things we think are important. (I have always heard that if you don’t know where your priorities lay, look at what you spend time on. It’s a tell-tell sign.)

Also that saying (that gets irritating when life is crappie) "When God closes a door, he opens a window." Let it be known that I will always think "so I can jump out!" even if I don't say it aloud. Windows aren't made for going through (outside of emergencies and sneaking out, of course); they are made for looking out and letting air and sunlight through. Why would I want an open window when I get a door slammed in my face? Is that really the best time to be able to see clearly the outside world, feel the breeze and warmth of the sunlight others are getting that I am being left to just observe?

Anyway, I can rant. And they aren't so bad really, windows. Sometimes feeling that breeze and warmth are the only traces of hope that we are afforded. They are there to remind us that life will go on and it is not the end of the world. They can also protect us from the harsh elements that often rage in the big bad world. Two sides to every coin.

This has definitely gone a different direction that I thought it would. But, hey you can’t control random ramblings…